She said "I'm afraid of falling..." and he whispered "I have wings"

assalamualaikum

it's the day.

i was pretty hesistant(tq peh!haha) at first about writing this note.whether to jot or to not.but since it is a very special and  rare occasion which will happen to you once in a life time(i pray so),so i think why not i leave some memories here as i might no be able to remember everything vaguely as i am now.haha as it(which by mean is this etcetera) also serves as my life journal till i-dont-know-when-maybe-till-i-die.duh haha whatever~..but please,pretty please,this note only serves as a reminder to myself and not something that can make u go "pehal budak ni" and get annoyed and then mcm xsuka apa2la..that is not my intention.but then i am sorry kalau rasa  mcm xkena gaya jga.huhu

it was impromptu.really,we never planned for it to be this way but i glad it did.hehe.some might say why the rush and some might ask will u feel regret of having it at this kind of age and at this kind of moment.to be honest,i did ask myself the same question now and then right after i made the decision which is kind of weird as it somehow reflects that i didnt think enough and thoroughly over this matter.BUT I AM NOT!and i am sure about that.that berbolak2 hati tu is only happening when i was all alone and the syaitan keep hasuting me and whispering those bads thoughts into me.haha.teruk btol.but the most common response that i received were "owh so xbalik la?" and "eh boleh eh mcm tu?"..haha.yes people.i am not going back yet and yes it can.or at least i THINK yes it can.hahhaah(upadated:yes people.it can be that way!haha)

being in this kind of situation,i dont have anymore suitable words to say except alhamdulillah and alhamdulillah.alhamdulillah for i am blessed with a very understanding family who are ready to lend me their ears to hear whatever things i want to say and justify the things later.thanks mama n baba.i love u both so much!i am also very grateful to have a very supportive siblings who's willingly to do all the stuffs without me asking them.kak long kak iman abang and yat juga.not to forget my bros in laws abg long and abg mizi and kak fira also.how funny to read kak iman's sms when i told her about the news where she went "yahooo!".haha lawak la hang kak man.and kak long asking me stuff such as what flavour of the cake should she buy.haha and went "oooo" when i told that the mother really love our mom's nasi arab.hehe cute ok kakak aku...of course if u ask my feeling,i would say that i feel a tad sad for i cant be there bit i believe that my loved ones will make it all out and share the same happiness as i am.all in all,i just want to convey my gratitude and my love to all of you!thanks from the bottom of my heart.last but not least,my gratitude towards his family and he himself for having no objection whatsoever for our so-called impromptu plan.n cikgu being so sweet as ever and sending me text telling that she's ok with the fact that i can't be there during e-day."jauh di mata dekat di hati".hehe

as for myself,i think i need to stop thinking too much and do not take things for granted.whine less and appreciate more.somehow,remember that whatever happen has been destined to be the way it should be and it also happen for reason.we dont know whats gonna happen in the future.but 1 thing am perfectly sure,i know i can always pray and pray that Allah will make our journey ease and full of bless,rahmah and mawaddah and by that i mean for forever.I thank Allah for His love and guidance and also for sending 'u',my honorary firefighter(haha) in my life.i really am(wpun xslalu ngaku.haha).so now,let us just pray for the best!

till then,"till the rest of my life.."

updated:130210-alhamdulillah.everything went well thanks to everyone back home!i love u!